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Wrote this in January, 2010. For the past three years, Death has looked me squarely in the eyes on a regular basis. Multiple lung collapses and surgeries, drug addiction and all of the associated problems, seizure and/or severe migraine problems, problems procuring money and shelter. Right now I’m laying in bed with a nasty cold [...]
I wrote this a long time ago and decided to share it here. As a Thelemite struggling with addiction, I feel that it is relevant to share my experiences with other Thelemites. Eventually I want to get together with some of my addicted brothers and sisters in the OTO and come up with a recovery [...]
Today marks my ninth day clean from a two year opiate addiction. For two years of my life, I’ve been spending extraordinary amounts of time in the bathroom, extraordinary amounts of money on just one thing, and much more time counting, adding, calculating, waiting. Will I have enough to get me through until my next [...]
Despite afflicting over 1% of the population — that is, 3,000,000 Americans and 50,000,000 people worldwide — epilepsy is still relatively unknown to the average person. When most people think of epilepsy, they think of a person flailing around on the ground involuntarily. This type of seizure, known as a “tonic clonic” or “grand mal” [...]
As time goes on, it seems a number of people are finally conceding to the idea that gays should be allowed to have equal legal rights regarding partnerships as heterosexual couples. This is definitely a step forward from the (unfortunately, still prevalent) dark age idea that homosexual relationships simply do not work, are unnatural, or [...]
As some here might know, I was addicted to oxycodone for a while, and then switched to kratom when I became fed up with my oxy addiction. I started out taking Enhanced Bali every 4 hours and now only take it twice a day, 1/4 tsp each time. I’ve been off oxy and have been using kratom for three months now. Right now I’m doing the maintenance thing, but I’ll eventually get off completely when I’m ready. Some people say you’re never ready, but that’s also what they told me when I said I’d eventually be ready to quit my 30 mg per 3 hours habit of oxy.
The client is not a programmer, and does not understand “back-end” work. My client called me up angrily many, many times calling me lazy and accusing me of doing nothing on his site. “I don’t see any changes!” he said. The client doesn’t understand that when you are building a huge form, it is not just dragging and dropping fields onto a canvas. You are doing client-side and server-side validation, captchas, maybe database work and protection against MySQL injection, email formatting, etc etc etc. That little form that looks like it would take 15 minutes ended up taking 4 hours, but the client doesn’t get it. Make sure you quote, as best you can, how long it will really take to get that _______ done, and explain why!
Today I turned twenty and for the first time since I was ten, I feared death to a great degree. Today I saw my grandfather’s ashes, pondered the immanence of a potential flu pandemic, coughed my lungs up again for the Nth day in a row (allergies hopefully), and am a year older. Today I [...]